sometimes it strikes me that I deserve to be so happy after being introduced to some of the worst men on earth. from the moment I saw him, I knew I will love him till I die. God has really blessed me this time - he's such a gift.

yesterday we sat eye to eye and kissed. to a trained observer like myself, it takes the merest tightening of the muscles round the mouth to show the meanness of the soul. I enjoyed the slight tension of his arm muscles as I held them before the predatory swoop of my lips. hehe. his face witnessed truth and love. I felt no pain. I thought we should love each other... profoundly.

it helps that my family like him. he knows he makes me happy whenever he visits my folks and he twinkles back at each and every smile of mine. eversince my mother met him, she and I have often engaged in semi-banters. it is our own language barrier. it has a certain style and specific rules. an essential between a teenage child and parent. my father doesn't really say much but I do know he likes my boyfriend. one thing though, his legal training naturally leads him to believe that a question-and-answer technique is the road to the truth. ultimately that technique is what that makes me bring him home to see my parents. my father always forgets that I'm not under oath.

after watching a video on love at school the other day, I reckon we do make a perfect couple. he's tall and I'm short, so our kids will be of average heights. he's tanned and I'm fair, and so our kids' colouring will be intense. he looks like a Pakistani while I look like a Filipina, therefore our kids' faces will be slightly exotic. hahahaha. but I was laughing at the ludicrousness of the theories in that video.

I marvel at what a secret thing the human heart is, and the human mind. a merciful protection for us all. for who would survive a journey round the mind of another? then again, who can fail to believe that the intensity of one's adoration, if further developed, will not elicit a response? "if there is love in this heart," the saying goes, "then there is love in that heart. for one hand claps not without the other." how seductive. these were my idle thoughts on a walk with him after we left my house.

I wish I can create a mathematical formula for happiness and become famous. hahaha. we have made plans for the future. and for the immediate future at least, it seems that our relationship would survive.