I very much hate it when things don't go my way. I knew it was useless to cry, but I cried a little anyway. sometimes I feel I'm being selfish because I usually choose not to blame myself when things go totally wrong. I know I've erred a lot in my 16 years of living and apologising to make up for my mistakes itself does not suffice. the fact that I only apologise for my everyday wrongdoings on the first day of Hari Raya is futile isn't it? how can my sins simply be washed away in a day?

God, to you I say my prayers. please let my faith be strong.