Wednesday, May 11, 2005
firstly, I have no talents. to be more precise, I don't know what my talents are.
secondly, I have strengths. in fact, everyone has their own strengths. then again, I don't know where mine lies.
thirdly, I seldom represent school. with exception to the syf band competition which we got a silver, I think there's no others.
am I pathetic or what? haha.
hmm. so friends may ask, why is it that I'm thinking of applying for the direct school application (DSA) if my aim was to go to polytechnic? well, firstly, I realised that polytechnic fees are much much higher than JC. I can't bear to put more burden on my dad, the sole breadwinner of the family.
secondly, I realised that I'd be shattering my mom's hope of wanting to see her daughter as the first among my relatives to make it to JC. I've never wanted to see her disappointed by me because I love her so much. not that she ever forced me to do something which I don't approve of, but I think it's time that I do her some good.
well, I've been a bad daughter to the best mom afterall.
so now I'm kind of in a dillema. I don't even know which JC to choose. most of the JCs are looking at what CCA you're in and what are the achievements you've got through the CCA. I'm thinking, if I were to tell them that I'm in the band, there's a high chance that I'll be forced to join band again in JC. that is what makes me go 'haiyah'.
hmm. what should I do now?
